Bearclaw Camp

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released June 24, 2016

Written and performed by Bearclaw Camp
Recorded and Mixed by Paul Bakker
Mastered by Beau McKee
Artwork by Jack Davis
Original Photo by Brooke Collier

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Adelaide - pop punk

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Track Name: Headspins
Sick of thoughts and pulling threads
Wasting time on TV screens
This silence will implode my head
Paint these walls red with my dreams
But I don't wanna die I just want a clean slate
Turn the clock back to the first time again
Just wish you could see inside my head
Just wish I was in your head
Track Name: Silos
This is such a mess
Who knew such problems could arise from this beating box inside of my chest
You watch the floor cause your sister said
You'd best not come around it keeps him down
And there's no heavier weight than a frown around your neck
But I beg to differ
It's like your presence moulds a resin and numbs the pain to soak it up quicker
So I can let you tear me up again

With ties cut I'll spend my time in my room
Reflecting on plans I made but never could move
And it's almost the weekend so I guess I'll see you soon
And I'll try to be better company, that's all I can do

Why am I still such a mess?
I thought I'd buried this in silos underneath
Constantly drowning in substances so this doesn't repeat
Cigarettes on my lungs and spirits flowing past my teeth
There's gotta be something stronger so I can get back on my feet
And let you tear me up again

Every night of this week has been dragged out
You're not easy to forget
Spending my time alone on this couch
With you inside my rotting head
I bet everyone's getting sick of it
But there's no bone in my body that wants to quit
How did I fall victim to this? Never landing a hit but getting every miss
I know it's been a while now
I know it's been a while now
Track Name: November
At first I couldn't break the ice on that cold November evening
The sun died out below the hills but I couldn't shake the feeling
The company all gathered round well I just fell apart
Housing doubt under the skin my mind wanders through the dark
I drank to the point of filling the void
The smoke from the room fucked up my head
As she emerged so innocent

I was too far under but I seemed to fumble steps in the right direction towards bumping heads
Somehow I found a crevice to let in the words I said
But all my beginnings are followed shortly by the end

We left the smoke and scaled the trees took time from November grieving
Traded it for cold and soil, contemplated meanings
Of course it was little like how I feel right now
I was left in the field when a torch light sought you out

I was too far under but I seemed to fumble steps in the right direction towards bumping heads
Somehow I found a crevice to let in the words I said
But all my beginnings are followed shortly by the end

Is it too good to be ruined
Maybe I just wasn't worth the rest

I was too far under but I seemed to fumble steps in the right direction towards bumping heads
Somehow I found a crevice to let in the words I said
But all my beginnings are followed shortly by the end

The wheels ate up the concrete and the backseat spun my head
Already losing grasp of any words that were said
I closed my eyes and when I woke it was as if we did forget
That night on rifle range has past, gone and it was dead

Is it too good to be ruined
Maybe I just wasn't worth the rest
Track Name: Contentious
I think of you now and then
After all the time that's been
It's getting dark in here
A familiar space in my head
Building my self up
Then falling apart again
I know that I'll be okay
But I can't see where or when
I need to get over this
Memories are all I am

It always ends in late nights
Sleepless and pensive
I don’t care
Why do I feel so defensive
I say I don't miss it
The words feel contentious
You said you'd be fine
But I know you're pretending
I guess small talk
Is the best we'll ever get

We both know it's too late
Separate to save face
Progress seems to stagnate
And tear me apart
Cos when I see your face
Again it fucking kills me
A harsh reminder in my head
To not get caught in what you send
I need to get over this
I still live it in my head
Track Name: Grinding Teeth
Stuck in between
Either side has no appeal to me
Conflicted and tired
Of grinding my teeth
Nothing subsides it
So I crumble beneath
Don't tell me the same things
I know you said to him

This overwhelming pressure
With thoughts of you and him

Trapped in my head
All over again
I can't be by myself
Or trust in my friends

6 months just to regress
I said I wouldn't do this again
6 months just to regress
I see now this is where it gets you
I'm guess I'm just like the rest

Some things are best left buried
So why do I dig below
For a reminder
For what I already know
It'll never mean anything again
We both know we can't be friends
I'll just sleep in your bed
Wake up and mean nothing again

Trapped in my head
All over again
I can't be by myself
Or trust in my friends

6 months just to regress
I said I wouldn't do this again
6 months just to regress
I see now this is where it gets you
I'm guess I'm just like the rest

You said you'd always care
I guess you meant when he's not there
Track Name: Hindsight
All those things I never said
Hanging over my head again
You said it's not me, but I could never guess
Just why you couldn't stay

Maybe it's just better that you didn't want it
The things you did, it'll always haunt this
I never thought it'd last
But who would have thought
It'd come to pass
So easily

So tell me why
You couldn't stand to see
Eye to eye
You could never understand
Does it ever make you look back
To before this all was tired
So tell me why
You wouldn't stand to see
Eye to eye
You won't ever understand
Does it ever make you look back
To before this all was tired
It makes me wish I tried
Do you wish I tried

Sorry that you couldn't speak
I know you know what this meant to me
Maybe silence was for the best
The cold said it first
Your eyes said the rest
I guess
I never thought
It'd become the past
So easily

I guess thats why
You couldn't stand to see
Eye to eye
You could never understand
Does it ever make you look back
At just how we let it slip
I guess thats why
You wouldn't stand to see
Eye to eye
You won't ever understand
Does it ever make you look back
It makes me wish I tried
Do you wish you tried

A lots changed since the last time
But I still hope you get by
I know you won't tell me your fine
But that's fine, I don't need it

Cause your eyes said more
Than you ever could
Your eyes said more
Than you ever did